A Letter from a Former Ashram Resident – Santhosh

The letter [referring to this letter by Brahmacharini Lakshmi] hold great relevance to every seeker who often falter to curb our egos and instead go great lengths to fulfill it. I left Mata Amritanandamayi Math blaming my Guru for my shortcomings and even tried to for a short period wreck my vengence against my Guru on public forums for not letting me rule my fortress I built for myself in the Ashram. I left the ashram at the same time as Gail Tredwell (Gayatri). She was seen as one among Amma’s foremost disciples and her departure gave my ego more fuel to run away from facing my inner follies. Gayatri had issues right from the beginning of her stay and was a very difficult person. She would constantly lie and physically abuse residents to get things her way. She was nicknamed “Queen Bee”.

“I have seen [Gail Tredwell] grab kids by their hair & throw them to the ground and grab the prasad Amma gave kids and throw them on the ground or out through the window and laugh. Most of us have always doubted her mental stability.”

I do not in any way support Gail in her activities and this post should not be interpreted as a vain attempt to gain her publicity and increase the sales of her book which unfortunately has not a shred of truth nor evidence in any of its pages. The majority of us were relieved she left, as she misused her robes constantly, which none of us could accept. I have seen her physically abuse some of the Indian girls in public. On enquiry one girl (who was related to my family) informed us how Gayatri would go to any extend to make children suffer. I have seen her grab kids by their hair & throw them to the ground and grab the prasad Amma gave kids and throw them on the ground or out through the window and laugh. Most of us have always doubted her mental stability. As an ex-resident, I can confirm the book is an expression of Gail’s need to gain at least partially her “Queen Bee” status and will not hold water in the face of scrutiny. Her malicious activities will go on until the day, just like myself, learn to quell the frustrations fueled by her ego.